Wednesday, May 20, 2015

placenta previa type 3

Seawal pregnant lg doctor dah scan placenta aku kat bawah. Tu pun sbb aku bleeding masa weeks 10 sampai weeks 16 kalo tak silap. Tapi melalui pembacaan dan pentanyaan sekitar, low lying placenta during early pregnancy is not a big concern yet. Sbb rahim kita masih kecik and we still dont know kedudukan sbnr uri tu.
Bagi contoh, kain yg duk dalam belon kecut. Belon tu rahim, kain tu uri. Sbb ruang sempit, kain tu nampak duk bawah kt lubang tiup angin kan? If the kain aka placenta tu is actually attach kt bhgian atas pun, still nmpak die kt bawah jgk sbb ruang sempit. But as we blew up the belon aka rahim makin mmbesar, seakan2 kain tu gerak ke atas. Yg sbnrnye mmg kain tu lekat atas dh.
Different cases with placenta previa, uri tu either melekat kt OS (laluan cerviks) completely or partially and even belon membesar pun,dia akan stay situ happily ever after. Kut. Unless with Allah's will, miracle do happen, kan?
Bcoz secara saintifiknya,uri takbleh gerak. It seems like its moving sb rahim yg mmbesar. Imagine the kain & belon tu lah.
Back to my story, doc just pesan to extra precaution bcoz i bleed je, not bcoz of the lying low placenta sgt. But again, doc kan salu concern lebih bcoz they know more and we cant confirm yet kedudukan placenta ku di mana in early preg tu.
Sehinggala my next scan on 27weeks. Actually ni alternative kami sendiri nak scan sbb on 28weeks aku dah book tiket flite balik Kuching masa awal2 pregnant dulu. So kena pi mtk surat doctor kalau nak fly takut2 tak lepas gate nti. Konon2 nak balik jumpa granny ngan grandpa lah kt kg smbil makan mee kolok kambingsss yg enak ittewwww.hahaha.
I did experienced so much pain (which im not sure if its normal for all preg ladies or bcoz of the uri bawah tu). I had pain di celah kangkang as early on my 20weeks, dan sakit mencucuk bawah perut yg datang tanpa ku pinta pergi pun tetiba. Kekadang rase mcm daging kena hiris2 kt ari2 bila baby gerak.
Bila scan doc kate uri mmg sgt rendah, look like type 3 to 4, but need to scan after 28w to confirm. Still, he refused to write my flite permission and advised me to cancel the flite jelah.
Time ni sedih dan rasa bersalah sgt2 kat Lobster. Yelah, kampung dia. Dah lama tak balik. Ikutkan hati mmg ingt nak tawakal je balik, even Lobs kate takpe tak balik, kesihatan baby kena jaga, tapi tengok air muka beliau tu pun wa dah bleh baca bertapa kuciwanye dia, lagi mau berpura2 sama wa.
Tapi bila pikir balik, we've been waiting for almost 4 years utk conceived, so takpelah. Tak perlu amek risiko even some ppl kate, eh kawan aku/makcik aku/jiran sebelah/bini bangla jual karpet/bini no 2 cikgu aku dulu pun uri rendah juge, ok je anak dia skg. Nanti2 naikla uri tu.
Nak tunggu nanti tu, entah naik entah tidak, should i risk my baby? Yg jiran korang yg dah berlalu dan dah beranak dan rezeki dia uri dia berubah kedudukan ke atas tu bagusla. Nasib aku belum tentu. Meanwhile, i dont want to take the risk. Okay? :D
Walaubagaimananya pun, on 28ws, we still went to 2 other o&g for different opinion. Still, the results is same. Cuma sorang doc kate macam PP type II-III, sorang lagi kata PP type III-IV.
On 30w, aku mmg ada prolong appointment dgn doc pakar di gomen hosp sbb masalah bleeding and so on tu. Doc pakar kat hosp gomen yg check aku kali ni is an old indian lady.
Bila scan dia kata mmg PP type III, so i need to be warded. Masa tu, even mmg aku dah well-prepared dgn pembacaan kes2 PP mmg mostly akan warded, tpi otak teros blank. Tengok Lobster, tgk doctor. Tak boleh tak boleh, aku bukan sakit tak boleh jalan pun. Wah kau, ketegar. Maka doc pun bagila taklimat serius beliau. Dlm otak sbnrnye pkir keje, pkir laki,pkir keje dan laki again. Doc pun bagi alternatif MC 2 minggu, dgn syarat there is someone to take care of me at home & boleh bawak aku pegi hosp immediately if ada even slightly bleeding. Pp cases ni, kalau bleeding masa trimester last, tu yg bahaya. Selagi tak bleeding, mmg la tak bahaya. Tapi who knows bila nak bleeding tu kan, thats why they need to monitor PPs mommies. Tapi bila xbleeding, bahaya time czer plak. Malas nak taip pjg2 bolehla pg google sendiri.
Ok bila doc ckap camtu aku pun setuju jela padahal mana ade sesapa nak bwak pi hosp immediately pn, sambil tenung laki. Hahah. Just pray hard aku takkan tumpah darah within this 2 weeks. Pls. Pls. Ameen.
Btw ni baru hari pertama MC lepas aku delay 2 hari sbb nak passdown keje. Dah rasa bibit2 bosan dah cemane. Wahahaha.
Ok bye.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Macam mana kau boleh mengandung?

Long time no see. Tak tahu nak mula dgn Hi ke, hello ke, Assalamualaikum ke, Yo wassap ke? Ahaks. So I guess I've lost my own writing skills. Not even a single post on 2014 and now it's already April 2015. Hik3.

So many good things happen since then, alhamdulillah. My career, my life, my family. But lets just focus on my life la ek. Where to start? I lost my tracks already, hahaha.

Lets begin on November, 2014. I was 'diagnosed' with the most precious and wanted disease by most of married woman. You got it right, I'm pregnant! Syukur alhamdulillah. It was a long waiting since we've been married on 10th June 2011, make it 3 years and 6 months of marriage.

It was a beautiful surprise. I was on diet that time, eagerly want to reduce as much weight with all types of diet regimes, so this one day, 28th Nov 2014, me and Lobster went to Tesco to do some groceries for my diet. I'd already lost 6kg that time and it was never enough (belum capai target semasa anak dara kahkah) so I'd decided to do some crash-diet. Eat nothing but fruits. But I realized this diet is not that healthy as you didn't get enough nutrients needed for your body. So before we did the shopping, I decided to buy pregnancy test, just in case. (bare in mind, i haven't use this pregnancy test for over a year that time as I didn't have 'the feeling that I'm pregnant yet' and my period is regular every months). But this time, I had a feeling that I must 'take care of my body' and I can't simply undergoing any diets that will effect my health.

Guess what, I test the pregnancy kit in Tesco toilet while Lobster is waiting outside on the bench. I would never expected to see those double line (yela kawin dah lama tak lekat-lekat lagi so we all mmg tak de nak berharap pun, just go with the flow je). I didn't believed my eyes, so i sat in the toilet for a while sambil termenung dan termangu-mangu.

"betol ke? Ye ke ni? Ke invalid lagi ni? Test kit ni rosak ke?" and all those questions.

I went out to my Lobster and buat muka seposen. He didn't asked anything pon (see, how not berharapnya we ols ini).

But I can't keep it for long before I show him the kit. He looked at me with teary eyes and senyuman paling besar sampai ke telinga, so that's what make me burst into tears. Menanges atas kerusi depan jamban Tesco je uols. Tragis. Sampai apek kat sebelah panik dan tengok weols semacam. Kikikiki.

Long story short, I am now by today is 23weeks and 5 days. Kut. Ikut apps pregnancy ni semo lain2. Mana2 jelah. Hihihi

Some people would asking, how? Did I take supplement? Did I went to see doctors? What did I actually do? Okey let me list all the things that what I really did before successfully being conceived.

1) First of all, of coz la, rezeki. Tuhan mmg dah tulis cantik2 bagi aku. Pergi bercinta ngan laki kau selama 3 tahun ni dulu. Lepas ni Aku ada extra planning utk kau orang berdua pulak. Alhamdulillah, 3 years of marriage tu tak lama, but insyaallah we are ready.

2) Ok ini point penting. Bleeding ovulation. Aku tak tahu selama ni aku ade bleeding ovulation, which means there are slightly blood during your ovulation. My period cycle is 33-38 days tapi mmg regular setiap bulan, so I thought I had a very long period days. 7 hari period, stop for few days and datang balik that 'slightly bleed' for 2,3 days. Rupanya that 2,3 hari slightly berdarah itu adalah my ovulation days. So sah-sahla weolls terlepas hari penting tu sbb dok ingatkan period kan. Thanks to my ex-schoolmate yg raised up psal bleeding ovulation ni lepas soal-siasat my condition. That was on July 2014. Dia siap pesan, time bleeding tu, jangan lupa ehem-ehem. Haaa gitu hahaha.

3) I was on diet. Start before puasa, bulan July tu, berat aku 60 kg hokeyyy!! (I was 45kg before kawen T___T). Mcm2 diet aku buat, atkins, shaklee, pemakanan seimbang.. I've lost almost 7kg jgkla, which in my mind would be one of the reasons of this successful story of being conceived :D

4) Bulan puasa jugak, I start consumed supplements such as b complex, alfafa, primrose oil semo tu.. Tapi knowing me, aku tak boleh telan ubat lelama , so aku consumed utk 2 minggu then I stop during raya. Habis lebur duit mcm itu saja. Sapa nak ubat2 tu boleh la pi amek kat umah aku, ade penuh lagi. Kih3..So tak pasti ini menyumbang kepada keberjayaan ke tidak. Wallahualam.

5) Jangan mandi. Ok ini dirty & sesuai utk married people only. Hahahahahaha. After the intimate course, which usually aku akan teros pi mandi sbb tak selesa hahahah but atas nasihat2 yang arif, I get rid off this tabiat. Hahaha. Pandai2 lah korang.

6) Last but not least, nasihat dari orang agak paling tua dlm family aku, Tokchik namanya. She is my late-grandma's sister. Nasihat dia simple je, Ishtighfar banyak2.. Ishtighfar atas dosa2 kita selama ni, Ishtighfar atas kelalaian kita, Ishtighfar mintak sungguh2 apa yg kita nak. Well, I did. Nasihat yg simple yg salu kita dengar tapi tak pernah kita amal kan? At least for me la.. Salu je dengar tapi tak pernah buat, ambil ringan. Lepas Tokchik nasihat aku masa kenduri kazen bulan 9 kut, I did try to ringankan mulut.

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya dgn izin Yg Maha Besar, dgn usaha aku yg minor nak dibandingkan dgn limpahan rezekiNya ini, i finally get pregnant on November 2014. The end.

Eh belom. Doakan aku ek. I've endured lots of experience, good and bad during this pregnancy. Threaten miscarriage, bleeding, fibroid, vanishing twin, placenta lying low. Haih. Nanti next entry (hopefully bukan tahun depan) kita story-mory ek.

Till then :)





Monday, November 25, 2013

Brace yourselves!

Lama gila tak hupdate. Dah macam buat quarterly report. Password pun dah ingat² lupa.

Rindu nak menulis tapi sebab oleh rumah skg takdak unifi, ke laut la.

Ok itu je. Bye. See u next 6 months. Kahkahkah

Harap² tidak.


Monday, June 10, 2013

~happy anniversary yo~

It's been 2 years since we've been married. Thank you Allah for honored me with this kind-hearted gentlemen. but of coz, he sometimes naik angin jgk with me buat perangai. Kahkahkah.

Last two years when we were just married, I struggled a lot to adapt being in long distance and apart from him. A year and an half i went groceries shopping, doing the house chores before the weekend, eating dinner, breaking fast, sleeping, and all that, all by myself. Except for weekend.

One thing had taught me for being far from him is, I learned not to be easily whining on simple things or something that is not reasonable at all like i used to do when we were engaged. Yes, I was a drama queen back then. Tehee!

This year we've moved to our own house after few months he was able to get a job in Kulim. Syukur alhamdulillah. There's lots of things to do with our own house, luckily Lobster is delighted on helping especially with my DIY-craziness lately. I would glad to hire him again, for the rest of my life. Bahahaha.

Eh dah jauh menyimpang nih.

Happy anniversary, Azlan Shaari.. Thank you for being a great magician, a plumber, a technician, a teacher (you are good in English, Geografi and Bio only, your Maths is suck, honey), an imam, a good consultant, an honest criticizer, funny, being romantic at certain times and being flat face all the time.

May Allah bless us all. Lebiyu bebeh.

p/s It's been a year since I've update my blog. Happy anniversary to that too! Kahhhh

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Saya pilih utk memboikot. eh?

Sejak Gaza diserang latanat Yizrael awal Muharam lalu , kempen boikot memboikot kat FB, twitter etc2 tu makin hebat. Bagusla begitu. Aku pun dah lama tak makan mekDer sejak beriltizam mahu diet. Air coke mmg tak penah minum pun, neither Pepsi. Tak layan air gas ni semua, tak bagus utk kesihatan katanye.. Haa bagus x aku? Awal2 dh boikot. Keh3.. Anyway mmg susah nak boikot barang2 Yizrael ni sbb most of them adalah barang keperluan kita. Mcm aku sendiri sebelum azam diet tu datang, rilek je menghambakan diri ngan McChicken Beger yg sedap tu. Oh no...........

Tapi aku perati tema boikot kali ni berserta ngan kondem-mengondem ya bukan kondom-mengondom. Tak kira la dr pihak mana, pihak yg nak memboikot, pihak yangg tak nak boikot dan pihak yg tak kisah nak boikot ke tak nak ke, even ade yg tak tau pun ape jadi kat dunia skg, sibuk nak Brazilian wax jee kejenya. Mujur tak di post hasil waxing kau tu. Pffff

Semua ni berbalik pada diri sendiri, macam kisah NIP yg kecoh di suatu ketika itu. Sebagai seorang balaci yg kerja di salah sebuah company penyumbang besar ekonomi Yizrael, aku pilih utk berdiam diri. Hipokrit gitu?Kahhh.. Yes, rezeki tu ada di mana-mana, tapi kita tengok prioriti. Kalau berhenti, mcm mana nak cari makan dgn segera if they don't have any saving, boleh jejas kehidupan sesorang tu tak, nak bagi anak bini makan guane gitu. Kalau sampai memberhentikan rezeki sendiri, rasanya tak perlu. Bukan senang nak cari kerja yang oi, apply SPA dah bertahun pun tak dapat juge. Takde rezeki kan.. Janganla mudah2 suruh orang berhenti kerja sbb anda begitu komited nak memboikot. (Tapi yang obvious semua nak boikot McD ngan Starbucks je. Napa tidak besar-besarkan produck Yizroil yg laen? Nestle? Tesco? Coke? Arsenal? Nokia ?Intel?Ops..)

Boikot sekadar mampu. Ok, if that is the point, then jangan la kondem orang yang tak mampu nak memboikot. Orang yg taknak memboikot pun, jgnla berdegang sgt ngn point anda kt fb, kang kena fire, anda juge hangin. Kekeke...

Boleh baca di link Ust. Zaharuddin pasal boikot memboikot ni. Katanya, tak jatuh hukum haram pun utk berurusan dgn kampeni Yizrael kalo sumbangan dr certain share holder, bukan polisi kampeni. wallahualam. 



Anyway, even kita berbeza pandangan pasal nak boikot ke tidak, just tolak tepi itu semua dulu, yang penting, let pray for them and any other mangsa perang in the name of Islam and humanity. 

I rest my case. 

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Dulu jauh, sekarang dah dekat yaw

Subuh tadi Lobster selamat sampai Kulim ngan semua barang-barang dia dr Sh Alam. Plan asal aku nak tolong dia pindah, tapi sebab cuti pon dah tak berapa nak ade, redha jela laki ngemas barang sorang-sorang.

Bangun pagi tgk ade laki kat sebelah, macam tak pecaya mata sendiri. We've gone thru this one year and half hidup berasingan, and now here he is. Tak sangka dah berakhir PJJ ni. :')

Perasaan macam newly wedd plak. Kahhhhhhhhh gediks.


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Tokwan

Few years ago, seorang cucu macam biasa pegi umah tokwan beliau setiap kali balik kampung. Bukan jauh pun 10 minit berjalan je. Tak balik memang ketegeri cucu derhaka level 1 la tu.

Cucu ternampak payung kaler itam jalur putih tersadai kat tepi dinding umah tokwan.

Cucu: Tokwe, cantiknya payung. Nak?

Selamber je kau mintak payung ngan tokwan. Ekceli cucu yg satu ni jarang mintak barang ngan tokwan dia. Tapi payung tu comey sangat. Hehe

Tokwan: Tokleh payung tu tokwan wat gi surau gi kedai.
Cucu: Mana beli? Comeylah.
Tokwan: Beli kat Kedai A, kalo nak gi lah beli. 10 hengget je.
Cucu: Alo....malas nk gi......

End of conversation dan kehidupan kembali as usual.

Next few weeks cucu balik kampung lagi dan seperti biasanya gi umah tokwan nya yang jauh 10 minit berjalan kaki tu.

Sampai umah si cucu nampak 3 keping payung tersadai tepi dinding. Payung  hitam jalur putih, maroon jalur kuning ngn cakelat jalur kuning...

Tokwa: Tie, amekla payung tu so, tokwan beli utk tie.
Cucu: erk....?mekasehhhh..nak itam putih ni bleh???
Tokwan: Tokwan beli cakelat tu utk tie, itam tu tokwan suka.
Cucu: hehehe okok mekasehhh tokwannn..

Dan aku tak tergamak nak tanye tokwan pegi beli ngan sapa sbb aku tau tokwan biasanya kalo nak gi kedai beliau jalan kaki je. huhuhu.. Sori tokwan..

Dan hari ni payung tu dah rosak, tak leh nak bukak dan tercabut sana sini. Salah aku jugak tak jaga, bagi sesape pinjam. So skg aku dah bawak balik payung tu simpan lelok kat umah. And that was the last thing i ever had from her.

Lately selalu teringatkan arwah. Tak banyak yang aku buat utk beliau. Kecik2 dulu aku salu lawan cakap tokwan, ngelat time ngaji, ngelat kalo tokwan ajak gi beli barang. Tokwan bekeng, tapi x kedekut ngan cucu2 dia. Tokwan tanya aku nak jadi ape tie dah abes belajar. Tokwan bangga cakap cucu dia belaja nk jadi Enginiyar. Tapi tokwan tak sempat tengok aku betol2 dah keje. Tokwan sempat kenal Lobster, masa tu tokwan dah terlantar sakit. Tokwan cakap;

"Tie, bakpo gelap tie." Selow je sora tokwan. Aku gelak je. Hahaha..
"Napok baek, budok juruh.. kawan seriyus ke tie?" Aku senyum je.

Tapi tokwan tak sempat tengok aku kawen.

Tokwan..Rindula.. Semoga roh tokwan tenang di sana. Al fatihah.